I wish we live in a world where there is real harmony, real friendship, and relationship, real-ness in human interaction, and real people. Unfortunately, we live in an upside-down world. We live in a society that is racial, sexist, prejudice, selfish, and obnoxious! Sad but real, this is also happening in the church today – yeah…in my church! Even among leaders. Whatever happens to the commandment to “love one another”? It is really sickening to have to deal with people who create a storm out of a teacup. Worst, we throw in a little spiritual jargon like “I sense the Holy Spirit grieving” and that is because of what? Well, it is because the person didn’t get his way or that the leadership had a different opinion and value about providing a parking space for visiting speakers on Sunday. Sometimes I wish it would get into our head that not everyone has the same value with regard to things like this and it’s okay. For me, I am fine with providing or not providing a parking space for invited speakers on Sundays. But for others, it’s offensive to sort of disrespect the invited speakers when we give them little inconveniences like looking for a parking space. After all, they are men/women of God and we should afford them great respect! To me, that’s baloney, twaddle, hogwash, garbage or nonsense!
The last 12 hours had been "tough" mentally and emotionally to handle. One thing, I was physically tired and that would explain how easily one can get upset, hot and fly off the handle. Of all days I had to try to rationalize how some people could create a storm out of a teacup. I was trying to figure out the motivation for such action - or the drive in doing it.
So I was tired mentally too and an emotional wreck by the time I reached home that right after dinner I went to sleep until 1.30 am this morning. Did it help? I guess it does - I mean the physical part. You know, in my "anger" earlier on, I was so upset that if the person was to stand in from of me I would have slapped him real good (all in my un-sanctified mind, of course!!) Honestly, I hate people who use spiritual jargon to justify themselves or to terrorize others into obeisance in whatever is making them upset, or even not getting their way. I like people who are straightforward, real and no holds barred. I can take that but I am sick of people who use phrases like: "The Holy Spirit is grieving for the church!", "God impressed upon me...." Let me tell you why I hated this:
1. How can I state my case, share my view, or explain further when God already said it? It's like telling me that God has spoken let everyone be silence from now on!
2. People who drop the "God part" think they are more spiritual and superior but really, they are obnoxious and arrogant. I'll tell them to put their feet back on the ground and don't get God involved in our little squabble.
3. They think they have a special direct access line to the throne room of God that no one else has or at least the one he is addressing his little "God statement" to.
Sorry for the long rambling. It is these sort of things that get me on my nerve and I lose my cool, my spirituality, and my "reputation" (if I have any! Ha Ha) as a pastor. I NEED TO GET OUT. I NEED FRESH AIR. I NEED YOU, LORD, TO CHANGE MY DIRECTION IN LIFE. LORD, PLEASE DO AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! I CAN'T BREATH!
